William vs William

Jobless

2012-02-18T11:25:00.000-08:00

3:25AM 19 Feb 2012 Sunday

It's been many days jobless and still there is no respond from all the jobs I've been applied on Jobstreet... That is just too much not liking thing happen on me, and it keep on re re pe pe peat..... Helpless, Hopeless... Tell me what to do now... I left RM32 in my wallet and that's all I have. Cool huh? :(

I'm damn hungry right now, because I didn't eat at all, I can't even afford for a supper or dinner. I'm walking in Jusco with my friend today, and I'm looking at those Sushi... I was thinking how good if i can use up all RM32 to buy those sushi, I realize how I love to eat Sushi when I don't get to eat them... and I start thinking " Why am I being so pathetic, how could this happened to me??? "

I always keep on thinking everything is gonna be alright, it will pass.. But in fact it didn't, it become worse and worst... Oh Gosh, I hope I can survive till the end of this February. I hope I could. :'(

我的主题曲

2012-01-30T04:57:00.000-08:00

You Haven't Seen The Last Of Me

Feeling broken
Barely holding on
But there's just something so strong
Somewhere inside me
And I am down but I'll get up again
Don't count me out just yet

I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed way past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I'll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
You haven't seen the last of me
You haven't seen the last of me

They can say that
I won't stay around
But I'm gonna stand my ground
You're not gonna stop me
You don't know me
You don't know who I am
Don't count me out so fast

I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed way past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I'll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
You haven't seen the last of me

There will be no fade out
This is not the end
I'm down now
But I'll be standing tall again
Times are hard but
I was built tough
I'm gonna show you all what I'm made of

I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed way past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I'll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
I am far from over
You haven't seen the last of me

No no
I'm not going nowhere
I'm staying right here
Oh no
You won't see me begging
I'm not taking my bow
Can't stop me
It's not the end
You haven't seen the last of me
Oh no
You haven't seen the last of me
You haven't seen the last of me

屋漏偏逢連夜雨

2012-01-30T01:35:00.000-08:00

30 Jan 2012 05:35PM Monday

今天是年初八，今晚要拜天公了... 我一點也不開心... 人衰開有條路，原來是真的... 我找工找了很久，一點回應也沒有，正當窮的時候，還是每個月要供車...這個月，我沒供，因為沒錢，糟糕的是，我家裡也很窮，也沒錢供... 我之前簽下來的GYM也已經幾個月沒有還錢了... 錢也沒有，工作也找不到，不知道怎麼生存.. 如果死是可以解決問題的話，我很想死... 人家說錢可以解決的問題就不是問題，這是騙人的，因為對我這種窮人來說不奏效... 我們家連拜天公也不知道拿什麽來拜，別人的很豐富，我們就連一隻雞都沒有吧？做人好辛苦...我只要錢，我不想好像現在這樣，死了也沒錢買棺材... :( 希望陰霾快點過去吧....

生無可戀...

2011-12-25T07:11:00.000-08:00

25/12/2011 11.11PM Sunday

今日系星期日...系聖誕節，但系今年嘅聖誕節領餓哦覺得格外傷感，格外孤單... 一個人靜靜地倒數，聖誕節一個人悶悶地度過，已經忘了有幾耐無慶祝節日了，因為身邊連一個可以陪伴自己嘅朋友都無，有點能開心叻.....平安夜我落到club,睇見人哋一大班friend系度慶祝倒數，我卻冷清清地坐在一角，無人理會，亦無人注意，仿佛像個透明人般，毫不顯眼....我.....透明了...

突然間令我頓悟，原來身邊無朋友一個人出去趁噓，系會更加寂寞噶，所以我到咗一陣，我就走人喇...曬咗我45蚊啊...真系肉赤...返到屋企，平安夜特別寂寞，連網上都少咗好多人，我唸大家都應該喺度慶祝緊聖誕節瓜...無朋友真系好慘噶，一個人逛街，一個人唱k,一個人睇電影... 如果可以嘅說話，我嘅新年願望希望有返個朋友，唔多，一個就夠，祗要有一個朋友陪我，咁就已經足夠喇...

今日系聖誕節，但系我卻一D都唔開心..真系覺得生無可戀，如果有一日我唔喺度，唔知會唔會有人發覺叻？千祈唔好留我一個人孤零零咁走啊，我最驚就系一個人，寂寞孤單噶喇... :( 希望我嘅新年願望會實現喇... >.< 無多，一個朋友就夠喇.. 唔該曬... >.<

Merry X'mas 2011

2011-12-21T02:30:00.000-08:00

21/12/2011 06.3PM

Wednesday, Yeeeeaaaapppp, X'mas is around the corner , meanwhile everyone is preparing for it, I was sitting alone and doing nothing about it... What a boring X'mas i have, I can predict this will hapenn on me and it did happen on me every year indeed.

It's already evening, I'm still sitting here alone in Wong Kok Pavilion and surfing Internet with my brand new ASUS Eee Pad Transformer... :p... Since I have nothing to do, so I'm gonna write a blog.. :) Hmm, after few days I playy with my Eee Pad, I discover that it atually not really as difficult to use as i think, hmm, I guess I'm starting to loving it... :P

Ohh Yeah, I'm gonna have my make up exam on 20th january soon, arghhh, am so nervous and have no idea at all about exam.. Gosh, whenever i think about t i feel bad, Have no idea at all and no preparation at all. I know it's not easy for make up test so I'm wondering, can I do make up without the cert? Or I just work like what I used to,sitting in da office and give up the make up? Hmm... confusing, suffering, exhaustng...

Anyway, I hope this Christmas give me some idea on what I'm gonna do in my make up exam and I hope i wont be alone in da house during X'mas, cause I'm already so excited about it~~~!!! :p Merry X'mas guys~~!! XD

I've got my Asus Eee pad transformer!!!

2011-12-19T06:41:00.001-08:00

19/12/2011 10.33PM

Today is Monday... finally I've bought my tablet, but it wasnt as good as i think... :( the android is very difficult to use and not as good as mac OS ... but anyway, it cost me RM1750, its bit expensive though.... nothing special about this tablet but it might be useful when im on abflight or sitting on da starb bucks... hmm, oh ya,I've done my hair styling exam... i pass the exam and i get the best creative hair styling.... wuhoo....!!!

Hmm, its very difficult to type using this tablet guess gonna stop blogging now... :(

Bangkok, I miss u!!

2011-12-06T09:12:00.000-08:00

01.12am 07/12/2011

Out of the sudden, I'm missing Bangkok... Bangkok is a fantastic place and I love it so much!! Hmm, I was thinking since next year CNY I have no place to go why not visit Bangkok? But where do I get a friend to accompany? Hmm, this is difficult, but somehow go vacation alone can be enjoyable as well but I don't like the feeling to be alone, it's so awkward for me...

Oh gosh, I'm starting to plan about CNY already, I have no idea why I'm so excited about next year CNY, perhaps it's because I don't have to visit my relatives house and I'm feel happy with it!! Muahahahaha ( Big Laugh )!!

Oh ya, if I have a chance to visit Bangkok again, for sure I will go again Chatuchak, Sukhumvit, Patpong for nightlife, Siam Paragon & MBK for shopping, Khaosan Rd for delicious food and more~~~~!!!! AAAhhhhh, what a wonderful place~~~ :)

P/S: Bangkok, I'll make sure visit you again next year (2012)!! :)

Examination Phobia

2011-12-05T07:00:00.000-08:00

11.06PM 05/12/2011

The exam is at the corner...............!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh gosh, I still have no idea at all for my hair styling exam... :( I need to create 1 creative bridal look & 1 creative fashion look, once I think about it, I feel like vomiting... It's so stress, uncomfortable and terrifying... I know I wouldn't pass for it, but still I need to take the exam *sigh* ~~ I wonder what I'm doing now, wasting my time and money there..

But still... there is something I'm glad to have myself there, which I get to know a bunch of great classmates and great teacher there, they really taught me a lot in make up and hair styling, just I can't absorb it well and show it on my work... I feel so sorry to them cause I just let them down.. :( SSSooooooooorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyy

Anyway, although the exam is tough and I couldn't do it well, but my teacher ( Mr. Chester) he never give up from teaching me , thanks, Chester!!! What I can do is try my best in the exam, at least I've tried... :)

我的天空今天有點灰 :(

2011-12-04T08:09:00.000-08:00

12.10am 05/12/2011 陰天

今天的風特別強，狂風暴雨的天氣正好反映我的心情... :(... 今天是星期天，我一整天呆在家里，足不出戶...說穿了卻是身邊一個朋友都沒有... 大家都有自己的朋友，而我卻不屬於任何一方，是獨立個體。空虛....

14、12、2011，這是我考試的日子，但是我卻一點方向也沒有。只是我發現我真的越來越不適合化妝了，但卻不能抽身。試過想跟家人商量，我媽卻堅持我一定要讀完直到拿到文聘為止.... 她完全不知道我每天上課都很痛苦，就不停地逼我去死，逼的我快喘不過氣來...要是死可以不痛，不辛苦的話，我想我已經死了500次了...(呵呵）

今天我突然有中很強烈的孤獨寂寞的感覺，但卻享受其中...是孤單過頭了嗎...不知道... 虛情假意，利用我的朋友多得數不清，而真心的朋友我卻一個都沒有... 而此刻的我，很想卸下堅強的盔甲，軟弱地被人保護，當一個弱者，那多麼地好啊....不太可能吧？？...

心裡很多話，卻沒有朋友可以訴說，幸虧床頭還有個泰迪熊聽我苦訴.. 謝了泰迪 :) 再不開心，也要堅強地走下去，這世界大概沒有誰沒有了誰就不行的吧？沒有朋友是可悲，或許一個人走更瀟灑吧...？？為自己加油吧！！ :)

A new journey of my life

2011-11-28T02:45:00.001-08:00

28/11/2011 6.18PM

Today is Monday, it's a public holiday in Malaysia... I'm sitting in Fullhouse restaurant in Wangsa Walk Mall and out of sudden, I feel like writing a blog. A blog that I've been forgot for sooooooooo long. Once I've finished my meal, I start to write my blog. Here it is.....

I've resigned from American Express since July this year, and I was planning to study make up and hair styling course and I was thinking that it's a skill can make me some extra money and it's not that difficult as I think. However, things always happen against what you expect. I still remember the first day I attend the class in XpressionMaster academy in Fahrenheit 88. It was a old unit which is hidden inside the kl plaza (ex - Fahrenheit ) but since my friend strongly recommend it is a very good academy for make up so I go for it. Indeed, it is a very good academy, just something went wrong on me. After I've attended few classes in academy, I found out that I couldn't really do a make up, and everything in make up seems difficult to me. I wouldn't say I'm very smart but sometimes I'm a fast learner thou, but in make up make me looks stupid, I learn every step of make up like a snail, pretty damn slow.... I can't even believe myself can be that dumb. I started to lose all the confident I used to have and like a kid get lost in the playground find his way to go home.

Honestly, I have to thanks my make up artist teacher Ms. Elgel Lu, she thought me nicely and patiently... She was nice and easy going but still I can't really master what she have thought... I feel like bang my own head into the mirror in front of me, how possible this can happen. She encourage me every class but still I just can't do it, I have to admit I don't have the hand that really can do something related to art. Since I was small I just can't draw, sew, sketch, draw a line, tide a nice ribbon...... And so on. My hand is just too dumb to do these stuff, and yet I choose to study make up and hair styling and I was thinking at that point of time, did I made a wrong move?? Did I just dig a hole for myself to jump in? How stupid I can be to choose to become make up artist, I can hear a voice inside of me yelling: " hey, moron, u just did a big big wrong decision!!! "

Time flies, have been 1month and 20days I've been learning make up and hair styling. 14th December is my hair styling exam date. It's only 14 days more, yet I haven't find my model, haven't got any idea for my creation. I'm like waiting the time to come and prepare to fail on that day, how helpless I am sitting alone in the room at middle of the night thinking how I would be if I just failed both make up and hair and waste my around 10k by investing in this course. The more I think of it the more I worry, I know my mom was expecting something from me after the course, she expecting me to become make up artist and showing her the cert. but what I just wanna tell her is I don't like make up and I hate the feeling I'm having everyday in the class. The academy is good, the teacher is good, it's just me. It's my fault...

Anyway, now I just wanna do what I wanna do, the thing has become the fact I don't wanna think about it, pointless. Appreciate my public holiday today and tomorrow attend my horrible make up class as usual. Hope I can finish my class earlier, it's nightmare!!!

Finally!!!!

2010-06-24T07:33:00.000-07:00

Finally IM quit!!!!!!!!!!!!

Teledirect Telecommerce SDN BHD

2010-06-18T06:10:00.000-07:00

finally im working... phew... although this job have good environment and colleague, but im so stress working in d company... and i didnt expect myself to get in the financial institution, a big company somemore, so requirement is high and rules and regulations is a loooooooot..... and i hate wearing formal to work... haixx... wondering how long i can work in this company....

Anyway,in order to get in this company, i need to take an exam call PCE, its a license for insurance, somehow i have to sell insurance as telemarketer, so i was studying fuckin' hard that time,and luckily i pass it, and now... muahahahahahaah,I've got the license for Part A & B and im a qualified insurance agent~~ XD

Sometimes when im working, im thinking about should I continue my study again? Is this my correct decision? I'm doing the right thing? I'm not sure all about this,but as long as this is a good company and i have a good boss~~~ What is really great about my job is i get to know a gang of good friends, all my bros... Yong Han, Raymond and Kien Fu, they are nice people, and glad to know them so i wont have lunch on my own... :p

Finally... this is good job,but tiring, because our job scoop is talk whole day in call centre, sometimes go home think wanna yam cha,but also no mood, because too tired, and tmr morning have to wake up and work ( weekend off XD).... Although the company give us a very good pay, but very stress in fighting target and handling customer... hope one day, i could be the top performer in my product line.. XD gambahteh!!!!! XD

P/S: just click on my title u will get to my company website~~~ ^^

why do i need to suffer like this?

2010-06-14T07:01:00.001-07:00

I just don't understand why my fate could be like this.....
All the good thing will never happen in my life....
Is it I am born to suffer all of these? If so, i wish i will never born....

Sometimes i would think that if i could transfer my life to a person who need it like someone who have cancer or someone with critical illness, who deserve to live better, rather than im wasting my life here for suffering all these crap...

If could, i wouldn't want to stay like this, i hope i give my life to someone else who need it, maybe he or she one day will become a person who is more successful than me, i mean anyone could be better than me, they should deserve to live, i don't...

Im nothing to anyone, even if im dead, no one would cares... Why I am still here, but the others who really talented to successful in future that can contribute to the community died so early? >.< If possible, i would want to donate my life each ten years to few people who contribute to the community rather than waste on me...

If the god can hear me, I wish I could give my life to someone much more deserve to live longer in this world, im not deserve that much... i dont want to suffer here... Yes, i hate that im poor, im born in a poor family, but I din mean to blame anyone,i cannot blame n choose for that,its my fate,i have to accept that,yes, im poor, so what!?

Im not smart neither, i was born to be dumb, im not as smart as my eldest bro as my mom always says that, im the stupidiest son she ever had, im not good looking, and im fat... I dont have lover neither friend, I'm low educated , I only got one diploma.... n good thing happens on me,why the loser like me still alive here... wasting~~~~~~ i should die earlier~~~

毕业了~~！！

2010-04-28T22:35:00.000-07:00

时光飞逝得很快~~~真的一下子，人就老了，也完成了两年的学业。快了的时光总是过得很快，和朋友相处，一起读书，一起考试，一起赶功课，一起吃饭，一起逛街，最重要是一起hiaoness~这些日子都不在了，大家都各奔东西，做工的做工，读书的读书。。。想起当初刚刚进学院的时候，还是傻傻的，大家都不太敢跟大家说话（对一些还觉得抗拒，哈哈！），但是我们在短短的时间里，大家瞬间变得熟起来了，不止一起说笑过，还骂架过，但是到最后还是黏在一起，难得啊~~！！哈哈~

两年后大家都长大不少了，是时候分开了，却觉得不舍。。。跟之前迫不及待想要毕业的心情很矛盾，反而觉得想要上课，回到班上看到大家坐着上课的情景，但是都没有机会了。。。有一点辛酸~（哈哈！）但是天下去不散之筵席，只能在向他们的时候，让回忆陪陪我吧~XD

最近很久没有写部落格了，开始写回就是不开心的事了~我最近运气很背，不知道走了都什么狗屎运，霉透了。。。跟他在一起虽然很短暂，但是很快乐，但是昨天开始，他就不接电话，不回信息，什么交代都没有。。。今天更糟，就连电话也关上了，我真的不能好好爱一个人吗？明明好好的一段爱情，也要这样无声无色地从我身上夺走，真的很不甘心，很不想服输，但是我无能为力！！

过些日子就要到新加坡面试了，如果过关的话，我就要离开这里，到新加坡去，开始我新的生活，希望我在那里可以有一个完全不同的生活和希望~希望我面试成功~》。《

P/S: 我想念的朋友们，保重啊~爱你们~~XD

时光飞逝得很快~~~真的一下子，人就老了，也完成了两年的学业。快了的时光总是过得很快，和朋友相处，一起读书，一起考试，一起赶功课，一起吃饭，一起逛街，最重要是一起hiaoness~这些日子都不在了，大家都各奔东西，做工的做工，读书的读书。。。想起当初刚刚进学院的时候，还是傻傻的，大家都不太敢跟大家说话（对一些还觉得抗拒，哈哈！），但是我们在短短的时间里，大家瞬间变得熟起来了，不止一起说笑过，还骂架过，但是到最后还是黏在一起，难得啊~~！！哈哈~

两年后大家都长大不少了，是时候分开了，却觉得不舍。。。跟之前迫不及待想要毕业的心情很矛盾，反而觉得想要上课，回到班上看到大家坐着上课的情景，但是都没有机会了。。。有一点辛酸~（哈哈！）但是天下去不散之筵席，只能在向他们的时候，让回忆陪陪我吧~XD

最近很久没有写部落格了，开始写回就是不开心的事了~我最近运气很背，不知道走了都什么狗屎运，霉透了。。。跟他在一起虽然很短暂，但是很快乐，但是昨天开始，他就不接电话，不回信息，什么交代都没有。。。今天更糟，就连电话也关上了，我真的不能好好爱一个人吗？明明好好的一段爱情，也要这样无声无色地从我身上夺走，真的很不甘心，很不想服输，但是我无能为力！！

过些日子就要到新加坡面试了，如果过关的话，我就要离开这里，到新加坡去，开始我新的生活，希望我在那里可以有一个完全不同的生活和希望~希望我面试成功~》。《

P/S: 我想念的朋友们，保重啊~爱你们~~XD

Christmas coming~~~

2009-12-19T01:13:00.000-08:00

OMG~~~~~~

Chirstmas is coming~~~

where should i go ?

what should i plan ?

Boring Chirstmas in KL.... >.<

break up coz of an email??

2009-12-12T05:18:00.001-08:00

she say got people send her an email and make her confuse~

she didnt trust me bcoz of the stupid email

hahaha(laughing)T.T

izzit so funny???

i dont care what other people say to me,i just mind wad she think on me

but she choose to not believe,i cant do anything also~

anyway,i dont think i have to explain bcoz of that

fist time can explain,how abt 2nd time n third time???

why she cant just have her own thinking??

so easy ppl can kenakan her d...

haiz...hope she can find one better than me baa~~

speechless~

wish me happy single~~

给电影人的情书

2009-09-09T22:08:00.000-07:00

歌名：给电影人的情书
词:罗启锐曲:李宗盛
歌手：蔡琴
制作：刻骨明心
多少人爱你遗留银幕的风采
多少人爱你遗世独立的姿态
你永远的童真赤子的心态
孤芳自赏的无奈
谁明白你细心隐藏的悲哀
谁了解你褪色脸上的缅怀
你天衣无缝的潇洒心底的害怕
慢慢渗出了苍白
你苦苦地追求永恒
生活却颠簸无常遗憾
你傻傻地追求完美
却一直给误会给伤害给放弃给责备
何悲何爱何必去愁与苦
何必笑骂恨与爱
人间不过是你寄身之处
银河里才是你灵魂的徜徉地
人间不过是你无形的梦
偶然留下的梦尘世梦
以身外身做银亮色的梦
以身外身做梦中梦

will i end up just like this?

2009-08-06T21:11:00.001-07:00

Recently i was wondering is it i should stop now? work or study? should i just go for a job? dizzy~~

Sammi new song~!!!

2009-07-30T07:10:00.000-07:00

郑秀文 - 叮叮当

作曲：何山@人山人海

填词：黄伟文

编曲：何山@人山人海

监制：蔡德才@人山人海

紫.ｓè制作 QQ：253057646

大踏步在无尽跑道

我甩一甩衣角的烦恼

人在活着在乎是速度

伦敦的钟楼天黑之前保证到

若跌倒学跌倒人很快就进步

望永生就永生你终点经已到

为你好为我好从此各自上路

曾经多温柔多麽风流不必留指模

潇洒的生存之道

一个人永远有型不老推不倒

明明是多灾的感情之路

一个人永远有权起舞

可以不需要双数

潇洒的生存之道

一个人切戒要人拥抱搞不好

明明是多灾的感情之路

一个人到处旅行宣布

不带走你的睫毛

Ding Dong Ding Dong

Ding Ding Dong Ding Dong

Ding Dong Ding Dong

Ding Ding Dong Ding Dong

Ding Dong Ding Dong

Ding Ding Dong Ding Dong

伦敦的钟楼天黑之前保证到

若跌倒学跌倒人很快就进步

望永生就永生你终点经已到

为你好为我好从此各自上路

曾经多温柔多麽风流不必留指模

潇洒的生存之道

一个人永远有型不老推不倒

明明是多灾的感情之路

一个人永远有权起舞

可以不需要双数

潇洒的生存之道

一个人切戒要人拥抱搞不好

明明是多灾的感情之路

一个人到处旅行宣布

穷尽处始终有路

Ding Dong Ding Dong

I hear the London calling

Ding Dong Ding Dong

迎着那钟声上路

Ding Dong Ding Dong

I hear the London calling

Ding Dong Ding Dong

期待更多惊叹号

潇洒的生存之道 I hear the London calling

迎着那钟声上路

潇洒的生存之道 I hear the London calling

奇遇我新鲜制造

潇洒的生存之道 I hear the London calling

迎着那钟声上路

潇洒的生存之道 I hear the London calling

时候到轻装上路

and recently i like to hear this song~~n which is sang by Fan Fan Fan Wei Qi~~

太阳晒的我眼睛睁不开

你的好脾气

让我心情坏不起来

下雨下的我眼神发呆

你的道歉

听着听着我都快要笑出来

谁说不能黑白配

世界上没有什么事

能够如此的绝对

曾经有人这样唱过

白天它不懂夜的黑

你却懂得我的美

有时候我会感觉非常累

有时候也会不知觉把你拖累

你有时会说我们不配

只要能依偎

真的真的我什么都无所谓

谁说不能黑白配

世界上没有什么事

能够如此的绝对

曾经有人这样唱过

白天它不懂夜的黑

你却懂得我的美

钢琴也是黑白键

一样能看出我对你

只有满满的感谢

也许黑永远不明白

在这个彩色的世界

有你我才会存在

#END#

This is what my mood recently~~

3 wishes~~

2009-07-23T09:57:00.001-07:00

If a fairy tale give me 3 wishes, i will ask for...

1st- I want a tidy, bright and clean teeth~~~ or not i will have to collect RM10,000 to do surgery on my teeth.

2nd- I want to have more and more money to have surgery. 1st, my teeth. 2nd, my skin. 3rd, cut off all my sweat nerve. I really hate when im sweating like hell. Even just walk few steps i will be sweating. I hope after the surgery i wont be sweating forever, because the sweat everytime make me look clumsy, all the hair i gel, the shirt i swear, and also my skin will have many red dot, ecspecially on face.

3rd- I want my family stay happily and healthy forever. I want my daddy business stable, i dont want to see him suffer, it makes me feel so pain. I hope to see him sit at house and enjoy the life.

If i can achieve the first two wishes, i will earn a lot of money for my family. no mater what way i use, i just want the money. ^^

P/S: If u got 3 wishes, what will u wish for?

The most Bad Luck Day In My Life

2009-07-21T03:30:00.000-07:00

Today, 21 of july. Today is the most bad luck day in my life ever... i have nothing to say. Bad luck till only chat msn with people also become like this :-

Mr.A : No assignment?

Me: ^^ No

Mr.A : TARC so "good", no assignment.

Me:...

(I was like speechless... suddenly let people shoot like this, then die d...)

This still not the most bad luck thing,much more at behind... I hope what happen today wont happen in the rest of my life~

speechless

2009-06-05T22:25:00.001-07:00

-speechless- ==lll

question...

2009-06-01T09:18:00.000-07:00

回答问题

遊戲規則:
被點到名字的人要在自已的blog裡寫下答案。去掉一個你最不喜歡的問題，再加上一個新的，傳給其它8個人。列出其它8個被點名的人，到他們的blog裡留言通知。被點名者不得拒絕。被點名的人將會得到大家的祝福(認真)，並且所有願望都會實現。

01.你認為普通朋友能做情人嗎？
答：能阿。。现在单身什么都可以，哈哈。。

02.你最希望從朋友(不包括愛人)那裡得到的是什麼？
答：希望得到帮忙，朋友就是有事的时候大家帮忙，有福同享。。。

03.最近最鬱悶的事？
答：每天没有超过十二点不回到家，在学校到晚上，感觉超恶心。。

04.最受不了自已哪個缺點？
答：想太多，死撑，懒得作决定

05.遇到喜歡的人，你是勇敢表白還是默默關注？
答：会勇敢地说出来，没什么好丢脸的。。

06.說出點你名的人的3個優點
答：傻大姐，很会读书，和亲切。。

07.你現在最想擁有的是什麼？
答：爱情和休息时间。。我只想好好的休息

08.你的夢想是什麼？
答：成为专业人士，赚很多的钱

09.喜欢现在的生活吗？
答：不喜欢，忙到吐，压力很重。。

10.如果要被關起來十五年，除了離開之外什麼都能做的話，要做什麼(複選，生涯規劃亦可)?
答：环游世界，最好考一个律师执照。。（不可能啦。。哈哈）

11.什么人是你最欣賞的？
答：有本事的人，不会废话多多，JUST SHOW ME WHO U ARE!哈哈

12.這輩子做過最瘋狂的事情是什麼？還想從事的瘋狂行為是什麼？
答：不够岁下夜店，喝酒，还不小心嗑药，玩自杀。。。（以前很坏。。对不起。。哈哈。。）还想试试偷东西，哈哈，然后考试全都当掉。。我肯定疯掉。。

13.十年之後，你想過什麼樣的生活？你打算如何實現呢？
答：有一个固定的伴侣，最好是像郑秀文这样，哈哈（想太多），然后当一个律师，养我的老婆，哇哈哈哈哈哈。。。

14.有想過放棄現有生活去流浪嗎？如果有，為的是什麼？
答：没有，我喜欢挑战。。

15.如果中樂透三億會怎麼辦？
答：会开模特儿公司，投资生意，修读法律（因为就算当掉还有钱给，现在不敢想，哈哈。。）

16.喜欢听什么音乐？
答：郑秀文音乐，夜店音乐，悲伤的旋律。。

17.年終要領多少才算OK？
答：越多越好

18.明天中午吃什麼？
答：得空就吃，不得空的话，想都不敢想。。

19.一個月多少錢才算OK?
答：三千。。越多越好。。

20.最想到哪里举行婚礼？
答：没有想过要结婚，觉得自己不会有人要，这一辈子都不会想，哈哈。。

21.雖然很八股題了，但還是想問一下，愛人好還是被愛好？
答：被爱。。。

22.有什麼不可告人的怪癖？
答：哈哈，睡觉会流口水，哈哈，别人越挑战，越折磨我，我越爽，不是他死就是我亡。。哈哈。。

23.最希望自己具備哪一種超能力？
答：变透明，别人看不见我，就算我伤心，难堪，尴尬，还是什么，可以立刻不见，多方便。。哈哈

24.有没有自杀倾向？
答：有，随时都会。。哈哈

25 如果让你回到过去，你最想回到什么时候？为什么？
答：回到我中五毕业的时候，重新选学院，开始不同的旅程，或许我不会读广播系，或许我不读书，因为我不能读，应该会去学剪头发，当发型师。。

被点名的: desmond
ivy
madeline
myke
pei hoong
christine
vanessa
alicia

Silence can kill

2009-05-28T03:55:00.000-07:00

In my opinion, I dont think fierce can make any changes... i dont think that if a person need to be scold to do his or her work... For me,i will juz talk nicely to them, they cant complete the task,i will give warning,after warning then he or she will not be given any chance anymore.. for me,i will more prefer my own style.

Fierce??? Angry??? hahahaha.... everyone can angry,everyone can be fierce,then till when u all wanna fight till? Actually i really dont mind what position i am,what role im playing... exmaple im leader,i dont need people to respect me like king,i juz need simple respect juz like u respect the others. what i dont want is dun bullshit in front of me. sometimes im silence doesnt mean that im stupid,i can think better than u but izzit i need to show everyone that im the smartest??

For me,i think it is not necessary... sometimes,stupid can avoid a lot of troubles,when u r weak,people will help u. even wanna kena u,they will also use easy trick,then y dont be a stupid people?? sometimes if u think u are smart but u r wrong... inthis world,there is a lot of smart ppl outside,juz do ur own thing then enough. i din say tat im perfect or smart,but at least i can differenciate which is the one who sincere to give advice and ehich is the one who bullshit in front of me...

Be a leader should be fierce???? hahahahaha.... maybe u think is,but me?? i dun care,SO WHAT???? im still ur leader o0o...

P/S: althought im friendly,but who bullshit in front me sure die,and sometimes silence can kill~ dont challenge me~ (kekeke,ia ia je... hehe ^^)

一个人

2009-05-14T06:25:00.000-07:00

一个人的滋味。。。很糟糕。。。

如果有人在你的身边，那该多好。。。

好痛苦哦。。。哈哈哈哈哈。。。。

I can feel that

2009-05-12T09:34:00.000-07:00

Tonight,13th of may,12.34am,I can feel that... I'm more closer to death....

Many thing just come to you without warning...

I don't know what's happen next,but I know....

It will be very horrible...

Enough to make me awaking from every night...

Worrying the whole process...

I sleep with one eye open now...

Till 12th of July...

I deserve it...........

P/S: wakakaka,not that dashyat laa,but almost... hope I can finish this successfully and fast,thx god...^^

If I have a sincere Friend..

2009-05-11T22:24:00.001-07:00

My College Life

I have many friends;
But not sincere friend;
When happy moment;
They shared;
When in trouble;
They ran....

What a pathetic guy like me,wakakakakaka... Accept it :(

None of them is the one who always stand beside you when you are in trouble... My fault?

But now, I don't care anymore, I can continue my study alone in college for another year...
Just a year, SOOooo(with spirit) what...(whispering) T.T

P/S: Luckily, Ewin(Summer) and guys, u all are still there for me, thanks... ^^

我讨厌KTM

2009-05-11T08:36:00.000-07:00

今天一早特地从家里搭KTM下去，再搭LRT到学院。。。去开会，到了5点，散会了。。原本以为很开心可以回家了，却忘记了这个时候，火车会很多人。。。首先在LRT还好，早早上火车，还有的坐。。。到了KL　ＳＥＮＴＲＡＬ这个鬼地方。。。

妈的！！！人是多到。。。。很不能看的咯。。。原本以为慢慢来，第一辆如果进不到，就算了，不要勉强。。。怎知道。。。。后面那些人是没有读书的咯！！！　硬硬挤进来，我的手脚都很痛，尤其是背部和屁股。。。一直被人家推，像做泰国按摩这样，痛死了。。。

我简直被挤到，我不想进去了，但是不能出来，一直进去。。。我以为不想进了，因为刚好卡在门口，如果他关上了，我就真的“哦烂炒鸡饭”。。。所以想退后不进，因为知道自己宽阔以及耸高的屁股是挤不进的，加上伟大的胸膛。。。怎知。。。还是被推进去，不知道是幸运还是不幸运。。。幸运是第一辆就进了，不幸运是真的很挤，手脚像被绑，很痛。。。

火车里面的安娣，当被挤的时候，一直在那边骂，吵死了。。。我们也不想的，拜托。。。这也就算了，还汗流浃背，还要挤。。。最讨厌的是。。。不知道为什么我快到我的站，后面那位不知道是哪一位的变态先生（因为太挤，只可以瞄到一下是男的），他的手很不规矩。。。第一次就不小心打到一下，第二次和第三次也是。。。我的样子已经很臭了。。。等到我可以下站了，要走的时候，他竟然扎了我的屁股一下，ＺＩ　ＢＡＩ！！！！！　所以我讨厌ＫＴＭ！！！！！

365天，开心的有几天？

2009-05-08T05:08:00.000-07:00

一年里面，365天，你开心的有几天？如果是100%的话，我只有20%吧。。。其实，我很容易就会觉得开心，就好像。。。某天上课出门就有电梯搭，不用等，我就会觉得自己那天运气不错，自己会很白痴地觉得很开心。。。觉得上天待我还不错。。但是，为什么能令我开心的事情，尽管那么简单，也就只有那么少呢？如果说这是暂时的，很快就会过去，那么这一年又是怎样。。。真的是，哇靠，衰的叻。。。

“很想哭，哭完无助，我被困在一个人的峡谷，多想要却又不得你安抚，眼前是什么路，已看不清楚。。。”

我的人也很乐观啊，只是自己越乐观，显得自己越坚强，就越觉得空虚和无助。。。你明白吗？哈哈。。。neither me。。。我不是爱哭鬼，只是。。。

“谁能体谅我的雨天，所以情愿回你身边，此刻脚步会慢一些，如此坚决，你却越来越远。。。”

P/S:如果问我最讨厌什么，我最讨厌下雨天。。。如果一下雨，我的心情会变得很差，脾气很坏。。。我讨厌雨天。。。

Another happy day

2009-05-04T19:16:00.000-07:00

^^ This time i know what's happening.. im happy because i know my friends still there for me... they are so sweet... hehe... like .... err..... no nid say ,they also know laa... haha,my "seafood" friends,hometown friends,my classmates,coursemates,OO dear committees,msn buddys.... hahaha... kam xia banyak banyak,acc me while im down... take care guys^^ nice to meet u all^^ haha

I'm happy

2009-05-03T18:52:00.000-07:00

I don't know what is happening,but i am happy now... ^^
Dear,thanks,you make me so happy...
i wish u could brighten my life everyday...
miss ya,babe... I'm happy~~!!!!! muahahahahahaha.........

i'm not make of steel

2009-05-03T08:55:00.000-07:00

please.... i hate people betray me... you broke your promise,i hate you.... i really hope i can cry,but i cant... im not make of steel,dont think that im so strong.... im enough for it,now,go as far as u can... never ever let me see you... i hope i never know you... bye...

好可怜的机器

2009-04-29T07:20:00.000-07:00

在某家百货公司逛逛，突然。。。让我看到了人生悲剧。。。真的是，闻者伤心，看者流泪。。。大家看到以上两个图片吗？这原本应该很开心，但是突然让我感受到“它们的痛苦”。。。大家看看熊猫先生们，他们好惨哦。。都系揾食je。。。翻晒白眼咯，阴公。。。另外，它们隔壁的企鹅先生，甚至面无笑容。。。真是可怜。。。小朋友们，你们上去玩的时候，要记得它们是多么的辛苦，要感恩啊。。。。哈哈哈哈哈。。。。

我长这么大，还是第一次看到那么惨的游戏机。。。其实，我在看到这个机器的时候，我刚好心情不是很好，就是他们让我捧腹大笑。。。

处女座？

2009-04-17T03:42:00.000-07:00

这就是我。。。

处女座终极完美分析

都说处女座另类，双重性格，甚至有点神经质，其实原因只有一个，处女座的一切都要随自己外显的性格而转，姑且称之为'状态'。处女座状态好的时候，可以将自己聪明、细腻、能干、温情、
幽默、有内涵等优良品质完全外展，此时他们显得如此完美，光芒四射，并且可以表现得非常外向、健谈，容易与人打成一片（这本非他们的性格）。而一旦处女座状态不好，便会变成另一个人，甚至非常窝囊，一事无成，不过通常此时他们都躲避外在的干扰,所以让人感觉有点间歇性自闭症)因为同为水星守护，所以处女和双子一样善变，但双子善变的是心思，处女善变的却是情绪。

　　很多时候处女座要面对很多实际的琐事，这时的处女座便不得不在冷中面对周围世界：要么说话做事很不自然，有做作的痕迹；要么便极度冷漠和被动，对谁都不理不睬。其实处女座很清楚自己现在的样子，但他们无力改变和控制自己的情绪，只能选择疯狂地逃避一切。

他们想的是：与其很不自然地面对你，尴尬地和你说些无关痛痒地话，或是因和平时反差太大而被人说成表里不一，性格怪异，还不如先躲一阵子，等调节好了以后再出来。所以，在与人交往中，他们只会和不得不交流的人（实在躲不掉）或是完全陌生的人（反正无所谓）交谈，而和熟悉的朋友反而疏远。

所以.你在他心中地位越重，他躲得你越远。特别是恋人.

而且,大家都知道处女座的人有严重的完美主义倾向,所以就有了所谓的\\'处女座的人最喜欢若即若离file:///。原因很简单：他只想给你一个最好最完美的自己，而不愿让你看到他无助脆弱的一面。所以请记住，有时处女座对你冷，绝不是你说错做错什么，这是他们正常的生理现象，他们只是不想让严寒和冰霜伤害了你（可事实上这种做法已经伤害）。不必难过，因为他们在乎你的话，他们的内心比你还要难过、自责和内疚！他们所能做的，只希望快点调整好情绪，回到你的身边。

正基于以上两点，处女座有时便会表现出非常另类的行为和思维模式。他们的性格也很多来源于此：不喜主动，不善交际（也可以热情，只是今天热了，终有一天会冷的），不爱表现，不喜抛头露面（万一哪天情绪无法把握状态不好时，岂不大失脸面），诸如此类。

关于'洁癖'并非处女都有洁癖，很多处女座并不爱干净，但却要求整洁，他们更多的是井然有序，不喜欢别人破坏他们所整理和布置的'完美'格局。处女座更多的是有精神洁癖。一旦触碰到他们精神上的禁区，严重时会表现得歇斯底里。

关于'花心'一般说来处女座绝不花心，忠诚是他们的代名词。异性关系多很可能是他们需要确定一个好人缘和自己有魅力，来反击那些普遍观点。一旦找到心中真爱，他会呵护你一辈子，只要你能给他安全感，他永不背叛，心中眼中唯你一人。寻花问柳，红杏出墙这些事与他们绝缘（一是责任感所致，二是怕麻烦）。

关于'聪明'不似双子灵活机巧，不象水瓶创意非凡，也不是天蝎的那种计画周密，处女座更多体现的是智慧。细腻、理性、好学加上十二星座里一流的洞察力和最强的逻辑思维能力，处女座想不聪明都难。没事少在处女座面前信口开河，随意撒谎，很多伪纱他们一眼便能看透；也别跟他们玩什么心计，你玩不过他们的。处女是那种可以把你卖了你还得向他道谢的类型。没事也少跟处女座辩论，他们没理也可找出理，甚至找出不止一条理来。处女是永远不会吃亏的。

关于'单纯'处女座很纯真，但绝不单纯，他们内心复杂得让人难以想象，很多不经意的事可能都是他们精心布置的。处女座也总在纯洁和好色之间徘徊，这一点最难说清。不过他们真正的内心是极其善良的，宁可自己苦也不愿伤害任何人，心灵如水晶一般晶莹剔透。

关于'幽默'都说处女座冷若冰霜，缺乏幽默。多和他们接触吧，你会体会到什么是冷幽默，什么是真正的幽默，而并非品位低俗的搞笑。

关于'迟钝'别看你和处女座说某些提议时他们半天才反应过来，在你说好的一瞬间，他们脑子里可能已经转过五六个你这项提议会造成的后果（通常是消极后果）了。他们总是想得太多，绝非想得太慢。

关于'自私'处女座的自私觉不是狮子的那种惟我独尊，也不是水瓶的以自我为中心。处女座正因为是无私的，所以显得自私。（能够理解吗？）因为处女不想伤害任何人。

关于'逃避'由于处女座性格上的因素，他们通常会显得压力很大。当周遭的事物已无法掌控，或是自己的情绪无法调节好时，他们会疯狂地逃避，堕落自己，这种状况通常对别人无害，却是伤害自己，让所有爱他们的人感到心碎。不过不用太担心，过一阵子他们自己会好的，他们天性的自我批判精神很快便会起作用。处女座一般不会彻底堕落，堕落前可能都已留有余地，只是在等待着希望的来临。甚至有时堕落都是做给别人看的。

关于'内涵'处女座有涵养这一点是肯定的。在成长中不断吸取教训，不断学习，取人之长来丰富自己的内涵。因为他们感觉到情绪无法把握，而这些是自己可以踏踏实实做到的，将来一定有帮助。这是他们所追求的完美主义目标。

处女座就是一个表面神秘到难以琢磨，说穿了却又很简单的星座。最接近神的人？可能吧，处女座喜欢这样来标榜自己。因为他们确实有超凡脱俗的一面。他们的内心接近了神，可是身在这个世界，不能不食人间烟火吧，所以必须得戴着一个面具活在这个世界上。

处女座喜欢和人说些暧昧的话，对心仪的对象却不好意思表白。

处女座希望别人了解自己，却又只将能公布的那一部分对外展示。

处女座是最有责任感的人了，可很多时候却害怕承担责任。

唔知道点解

2009-04-07T05:30:00.000-07:00

“唔知道点解，事情一次过咁发生。。。搞到我都就来训低。。。”

最讨厌MQA了。。。。不知道什么东东，一直烦着我。。还要回答什么问题的。。。平时连读书时间都没有了，还要想想准备回答问题的东西。。糟糕了。。。想到考试，今天考的试真的是kns。。。不知道自己考什么。。我这个学期死定了。。。T.T

除了MQA，还有一样事情。。。新生要开学了，就是说我又要想去年的senior一样做同样的白痴东西，哈哈。。就是带新生逛逛，跟他们聊聊，参他们一起玩之类的。。。一样的，是蛮累的事情，但我觉得蛮好玩的，只是我还要去想怎样待他们之类的东西。。。烦。。。

不说烦人的东西了，越数越多。。。还是想想下一步该怎么死吧。。哈哈。。

开心的东西（第二篇）

2009-04-03T04:36:00.000-07:00

哈哈哈。。。改变一贯作风，写点开心的吧。那么多个“哈”字就知道有开心的事咯。。对我来说真的是又累又开心。。。前天，去sean家，因为我太无聊了，加上家里不知道为什么不能上网。。。好彩我亲爱的housemate帮我打电话去弄着了，你知道啦，弄这种东西很麻烦的嘛，就留给他咯，是不是。。哈哈。。（心虚。。。）

经过攀山涉水，千辛万苦，终于汗流浃背地到了sean sean的家。。。（真有深度，哈哈）我们俩条水一见面就一发不可收拾，一聊就一两个小时，又一次发挥aunty的本色。。。以下就是我们的对话。。。：

我：上次我在jusco买yogurt，三支十块叻，便宜到。。。

他：是咩？哇，酱很便宜咯。

我：是啦，看下这里卖多少

（观察中。。。惊吓!）

我：哇老！贵到。。。不像样咯，那个价钱很不能看咯。。。一支就要差不多五块钱，diu。。。

他：哈哈。。。是酱的咯

我：没有办法咯，突然很想喝。。算啦，给他赚咯。。。（不爽。。）

（走到零食部门）

他：哈？？（手上拿着oreo）他卖到很贵咯，这边卖RM3.90,我在7-11看到RM2.80罢了叻

我：真的？酱我的yogurt那边卖应该会比较便宜咯？（兴奋。。哈哈。。）

（他以赛车手一般的速度，把刚刚拿了的水和零食，立刻放回原位..==）

他&我：（心有灵犀地）走。。！

（就这样两个人为了一快九毛，山长水远地到了7-11。兴奋地第一时间去看yogurt有没有比较便宜，结果。。。）

我：什么。。？（被扎到）为什么没有卖？（汗都还在滴着）（叹气。。。）

他：看看我的oreo先。。。

（！！！更扎到的事情发生了。。。架子贴的是RM2.80,但贴在oreo的是RM3.90。。换句话说，我们白走了。。。我忍不住说了第一句话）

我：妈嗨！！么也兰哦。。。

他：（平静的，像是看破红尘了）我们回去买吧。。。==lll

就这样两条傻嗨又从7-11走回carrefour。。。(aunty省钱大作战，失败。。）哈哈哈。。。到了半夜，我突然兴致大发，约了sean,seh ling和jia hao一起去titiwangsa公园，哈哈。。。东跑西跑，所有东西都玩遍了(包括“蝴蝶袖机”都玩了），连三个aunty在早上晨运的场景都·上演了，到了半夜三点半才回家。。我呢？回到家，躺在床上还是睡不着，就这样地第二天早上去学校开会，身水身汗爬到SWC　Ｒｏｏｍ，第一步踏进去就听到不用开会了。。。＝＝

Ｐ／Ｓ：我的命运还真坎坷。。。夭寿。。

写开心的东西？

2009-04-02T07:03:00.000-07:00

今天有人告诉我，怎么你的部落格都没有开心的东西，好悲观哦。。。哈哈。。。看了过后，的的确确，没什么值得开心的东西让我写上去。。。所以我告诉他，我喜欢笑。因为不想让人家知道，也没这个必要。我很赞同，越喜欢笑的人，内心越害怕寂寞。。。这正不就是在说我吗？

“每个人的心都要保留一块美丽的境域，所以才可以终身美丽。。。” 哈哈，不用说也知道这句话从谁的身上学到的。“当累的时候，停在自己的安全岛，想想应该向左还是向右，要停下来还是继续往前走。。。” 我的安全岛？我的家人就是我的安全岛。。。^^ 适合的时候，还是会靠过去，休息一下，重新出发。。。

哈哈。。。答应你们吧，以后尽量写开心的东西。。。哈哈。。。

跟压力一起成长

2009-03-30T05:36:00.000-07:00

忙碌的生活开始了。。。跟压力为伍，与自己决斗。。。每一天起床都会有不安的感觉，也慢慢习惯了。肩膀开始重了，不知不觉才发现自己睡到一半被压力吓醒不少次了。。。哈哈。。。竟然习惯了，或许是我太逊了。。。安啦，撑得住。。。只是想找一个地方，或人说出来。。。现在说了，舒服多了。。。^^

Fuck off

2009-03-25T04:38:00.001-07:00

leave me alone.man... just fuck off if you just bullshit in front others... No point you get in here and fuck up all the thing... Come on,I dont wanna fuck you up,ass hole!

new concept,new committee

2009-03-20T04:27:00.000-07:00

Since all are not gonna help in our show,and we are going to come out with new concept too,then we have to depend on ourselves,all new committee and concept this year.... gambahteh la...

One thing i will remember,i wont treat my junior as my senior treat me now,its too cruel.. seeing us how to die.... dont want help,never mind,thanks for tricking me.... u make me stronger...^^

-Blazing-

靠自己！！

2009-03-19T07:12:00.000-07:00

很不喜欢。。。这种感觉。。。不喜欢无助的时候，没有人帮你，没有人肯定你，没有人瞧得起你。。。一次又一次，每个都像是注定一样，都有不同的理由拒绝你。。。这一次，真的没有人可以帮我了。。。要靠自己了。。。虽然没有那些有经验的人帮我，全都是新人，但是我会好好用这班新人打这场仗。。。。

我不会这么容易倒下，瞧不起我的人，大家走着瞧！！不帮我没有关系，尽管把人挖走吧！！我会带着我的新人，跟你拼了！！我不会输。。。。（希望吧。。哈哈）

P/S: Will the miracle happen with the freshman ?? Grow together,Build Together,Shine together,here comes the miracle~

真的有这样的人？

2009-03-12T07:16:00.000-07:00

我有一个网友。。。今天，他告诉了我一件事，他所有的遭遇。。。相不相信，就看你咯，我对他，有所保留。。。

他说，他在六岁的时候，家庭分裂，父母离婚。。。就再也没有看到妈妈。。。他十六岁那年，骑脚踏车的时候，被车撞倒。。。脚受伤了，到现在都不能站久久。。。到现在，知道自己有心脏病，随时会没命。。。自己晕过两次，不知道下一次晕的时候，会不会那么好运醒来呢？身为他的朋友，当然劝他不要放弃，虽然他的命运比较坎坷，但是总要享受眼前的美好吧？

没有料到，他竟然说我没有家人，没有朋友，更别说爱人。。。我怕我一离去，我的爱人不知道会怎样。。。而且惨的是，人家生病都在家里，而我很多东西烦，要找工作养活自己，可是心脏病，脚又有问题，很难找。。。直到自己二十岁才遇回自己的妈妈，但妈妈却告诉他，她有癌症，医生说会传给儿子或女儿。。。以为见到妈妈，会很开心，但却。。。。。

他现在三十岁。。。还是这样生活下去。。。。命运。。。苦不堪言。。。。

P/S:我觉得他的命运也未免太惨吧？真的有人那么惨？所以我还是迟迟不敢相信。。。有点犹豫。。。但如果他说的真的，我会非常同情他。。。人生无常啊。。。。

morning

2009-03-11T16:54:00.000-07:00

Good morning... A new day begun,a new life of mine begun...

My target being obvious now,I'm heading toward to it...

~~William Yeoh~~

为什么？

2009-03-11T08:12:00.000-07:00

为什么？
我。。。那么差吗？
不配吗？
你说。。。
我们不适合，我会找到更好的，
只是还没有遇到罢了。。。
多少年了。。。？

你说的，我都还记得
你还爱我吗？
一直很想问你这句话，
却又怕，
听到你真实的回答。。。

后来　我总算学会了　如何去爱
可惜你　早已远去　消失在人海
后来终于在眼泪中明白
有些人　一旦错过就不再
槴子花　白花瓣　落在我蓝色百褶裙上
“爱你”　你轻声说
我低下头　闻见一阵芬芳
那个永恒的夜晚　十七岁仲夏　你吻我的那个夜晚
让我往后的时光　每当有感叹
总想起　当天的星光
那时候的爱情　为什么就能那样简单
而又是为什么　人年少时
一定要让深爱的人受伤
在这相似的深夜里　你是否一样　也在静静追悔感伤
如果当时我们能　不那么倔强
现在也　不那么遗憾
你都如何回忆我　带着笑或是很沉默
这些年来　有没有人能让你不寂寞
后来　我总算学会了　如何去爱
可惜你　早已远去　消失在人海
后来终于在眼泪中明白
有些人　一旦错过就不再
你都如何回忆我　带着笑或是很沉默
这些年来　有没有人能让你不寂寞
后来　我总算学会了　如何去爱
可惜你　早已远去　消失在人海
后来终于在眼泪中明白
有些人　一旦错过就不再
后来　我总算学会了　如何去爱
可惜你　早已远去　消失在人海
后来终于在眼泪中明白
有些人　一旦错过就不再
永远不会再重来
有一个男孩　爱着那个女孩

好一朵美丽的茉莉花
好一朵美丽的茉莉花
芬芳美丽满枝桠
又香又白人人夸
不让谁把心摘下
就等那个人爱呀
茉莉花呀茉莉花
谁当我情人
茉莉花
你说我真好
什么都好
谁当我情人做梦都会笑
我望着窗外的街角
看到辛酸走来幸福走掉
呜呼......
不让谁把心摘下
就等那个人爱呀
茉莉花呀茉莉花
谁当我情人
茉莉花
你说我真好
什么都好
谁当我情人做梦都会笑
我望着窗外的街角
看到辛酸走来幸福走掉
你说我真好
比谁都好
有适合的人要帮我介绍
如果我真的那么好
你为什么不要
为什么不要
好一朵美丽的茉莉花
好一朵美丽的茉莉花
芬芳美丽满枝桠
又香又白人人夸
茉莉花呀茉莉花。。。

你们真是的

2009-03-11T05:52:00.000-07:00

朋友啊，我的朋友。。。你们为什么分成两派呢？其实，你们都是一样的，你们其实都不是坏人，只是一个不说，一个不出声。。。结果，误会大了。。。一个固执，一个放不下面子，误会永远都不能解开。朋友们，让我说真心话吧，你们本来有一个很好的朋友，为什么为了小事放弃大家呢？面子，和自己站在自己的角度想的固执有那么重要吗？趁现在还有挽留的地步，坐下来好好谈吧。。。

成绩已经是一个过去

2009-03-10T06:08:00.001-07:00

终于成绩出了，变成了过去。。。可幸的是，我没有当掉任何一科，但。。。。成绩超烂。。。担心。。。我这次死定了，成绩一定一直滑下去。。。心情欠佳的一天。。。。我感觉好想死哦，看见镜子里面的自己，就是印着笨蛋两个字。。。T.T。。。

没心情了啦。。。

成绩要出炉了

2009-03-08T18:47:00.000-07:00

不知不觉，揭发成绩的时候要到了。。。本少深感害怕，不知道该怎么办。。。可以肯定，我最少当掉三科，这次糟糕了。。。要给两百四啊。。。真系卖屁股都唔掂啊。。。三月十号，就是死期了，好害怕哦。。。朋友们，顺啦！！！

我是什么？

2009-03-08T05:20:00.001-07:00

今天去金河，看朋友比赛，和做宣传。。。觉得他们都很厉害，会唱歌的唱歌，会跳舞的跳舞，觉得很羡慕。。。当和几个朋友坐下来吃东西的时候，他们都在聊他们唱歌的东西，我也硬学人家说，结果怎么都插不进话题。。。然后就说，哼，我也会跳舞啊，哈哈。。。结果，朋友们都很怀疑，听了一下，继续讲他们的话题，我觉得。。。很伤。。。哈哈。。不是因为人家说我不会跳舞，因为我真的不是很会跳。。。

难过的是，他们的反应提醒了我。。对了，我还会什么？我好像什么都不会。。。什么才艺都没有，读书更别说了，开始担心自己的将来，会是怎样。。。我能做什么？我进错系，拿错课了吗？一样乐器也不会，可以怎样。。。在火车上，想了很久，越想越难过，因为想不出自己以后的去向。。。

其实，我没有生气你们，朋友。。。我是生气我自己，你们都有才艺可以聊，而我想挤一个出来，都没有。。。好没用哦。。。^^呵呵，或许我真的选错系了，我不该进这么一个系，也许我应该停下来，认真想想，我应该往哪里去？但朋友们，你们都很棒！！

繁忙中。。。

2009-03-06T08:26:00.000-08:00

我想现在应该是我忙的时候吧？在一个下午，不知道什么情况之下，竟然把学院的OO night event拿来搞。。。哇靠。。。其实那是个。。嗯，算是个选美的比赛吧。。有男的，和女的参加比赛，算是一个大型的活动吧？自己的实力到哪里，我很清楚。。。至于我真的可以做好我的programme master吗？我不敢说，不敢想，但会把最好的呈现给别人看。。。

其实我也会累，身上披了那么多东西，有时候不是你说想摘下来就可以摘下来的，要顾全大局。。。职位再多，也只是让自己忙着忙着，快快的过完我的diploma这两年。。。也因为自己什么都想试试，结果，自己喘不过气来。。。我有想过，把所有东西都卸下，但是我又不放心让不三不四的人做，弄到水深火热。。。哈哈。。。但如果，有我觉得很好的人，我真的会考虑什么都不管，静静的读完我的书，轻松的去做兼职，放学就回家，不用想开会，做什么都不用因为披着这些无聊的职位，而碍手碍脚的。。。而自己的苦衷人家又怎么会体谅到呢？

虽然职位小小的，但却很多人都在看着你的言行举止。。。。当然知道会有难免不了的是非，但如果我是无名氏的路人甲呢？就算我做了什么，传到别人耳里，人家也不知道我是谁，根本不以为然，那该多好。。。^^想要简单的生活，其实还真难，人总不能安静度过吗？

或许付出的会有回报吧？我相信报应^^。。。做坏事的坏蛋，有一天会帮我惩罚他们，把他们都变成乌龟。。。哈哈哈！！！不需要生气，也不用解释，日久见人心，有一天，他们会明白的。。。^^其实，我习惯这样的感觉，只是我到现在还是很不喜欢掌权的东西，会惹人眼红，千方百计陷害你，拉你下台。。。我最讨厌用脑了，可是现在说话，做任何一个动作之前都要想清楚，好烂的生活哦。。。

接下来，会越来越繁忙，所以希望我不会再生病，顺顺利利把整个活动搞好。。。希望大家支持2009 OO night in TARC!!!!!

Complicated Friendship

2009-03-01T09:11:00.000-08:00

What a complicated friendship~

Today,i started to get bored on what happening on my friends... Maybe that is too complicated till I dont know how to help them... And i think i dont even have the ability to do so... In the other hand,my course is totally messy.... Anyone tell me what to do?? Why im the only one? Im so tired for all of this,I wont bother anymore... I will just give back those jobs for those who are responsible to do so,I think that is more than enough for me to help her till here...

I just want a normal life,I mean...simple life to complete my tiny Diploma... please..... I just want to pass my Diploma,dont interrupt me with the complicated friendship,committee..... Leave me alone for a simple life.. I hope i wont have to busy about those things anymore,miss course rep,now is your show time,u will be able to handle us,I will leave all of this to u,cause im tired...

I just want a simple life...

Nightmare in Neway

2009-02-22T09:11:00.000-08:00

gosh gosh gosh... currently at cheras neway which behind of the leisure mall... at the moment now,i feel like a nightmare.... in order to calm down myself,i go out from the damn fucking room and currently at the reception hall's free launching pc and writing this blog.

first of all,im not a bad guy and even im a patient guy. but what i cant stand of it is the person who singing alone with a god damn ugly voice,thats still ok. in the other hand,she doont even knoe the lyrics.... gosh. actually today is my friend birthday,we here planning to celebrate the birthday,unfortunately we meet someone who out of their mind n keep on singing without letting out the chance to the others... they are crazy at all. other than that,my friend was trying to sing that song she trying to sing too... but when she hear that sound of my friend,she repeat the song again... dont u think that she is totally awful??!!!! fuck her la!!!! bitch!! fuck up ur smelly fucking mouth and ur SO HAI voice make me feel like dying!!! whAT THE FUCK SHE THNK SHE IS,trying to manipulate all the situation... fuck fuck fuck!!! let her singing alone in her room!!!!

any of my friend who see this person,please becareful........

我的假期

2009-02-01T23:48:00.000-08:00

又到了假期。。。没有一丝觉得期待，反而害怕不知道要怎样过我的假期。想要找一份工作，但却还是找不到，真的很不想闷死在这个假期里。。。在这个假期特别想找工作来做，除了想赚钱，还想用多余的时间来忘记情人节的存在。。。真的很讨厌情人节，甚至不想出门，因为不想看到自己是多么的孤单。。。

过了明天就考完试了，不知道要怎样过，无所事事。。突然有一个想法，我要减肥，哈哈。。。在这个假期，我要让自己瘦下来，最好在情人节之前，那我就有希望了。。。呵呵。。。除了这样，我的路也就不会走得那么坎坷，胖子的路不好走啊。。。T.T。。。这样吧，放一张现在的照片，然后减肥成功过后，再放上去，看看有没有分别，哈哈。。

所以在这里呼吁所有善心人士，谁可以捐出他一天的时间，陪我这个情人节没有人陪的可怜虫。。。小弟感激万分。。哈哈。。

第二学期完结篇

2009-01-21T05:45:00.000-08:00

第二学期。。。完了。。。新的学期，我的主题-沉默是金。。。不说多话。。只和我觉得是真心的朋友才交谈^^。。。（呵呵。。因为有人说我不走谐星路线，样子没那么衰。。）哈哈。。。啊。。多么痛的领悟。。。

好了。。。说了不走谐星路线。。。要开始装酷了。。。所以以后看到我，不准笑哦。。。因为我会忍不住。。哈哈。。。好了，说了不多说。。。总之，威廉，我。。。独来独往。。。今年情人节又是自己过。。。孤独万岁，失恋无罪~。。。

本世纪最短的部落格。。。。呵呵。。。

me=william

2009-01-17T19:05:00.000-08:00

I'm currently sitting for exam in second sem. Realize that actually I can't study as well as I was expected last time. In this sem,I know that i might have to resit my paper,and it gonna cost me.

Argh....! Great...,feel like wanna slap on my face over hundred times! Wake up~~~~~ William...!!!! Did you numb!!?? The whole day,was passed by sleep,eat,sleep,and eat.... If this sem,if I fail a lot,I think I might withdraw,maybe I'm not the type of studying,I just can't study...T.T

In this case,when i tell my mom I'm gonna quit for sure I will let her slap on my face over thousand times,and take out her M-i6 shoot me all around,then I think I may withdraw,haha.... Although is mission impossible,but if I'm really can't study,what for I'm wasting time and money by keep on resitting the paper. In addition,this is only my first year second sem,if in this junior level and I can fail my paper,I don't know what to do for the following years...

Let's pray for my final exam,hope I will still seeing my friends in the following sem....>.<

Exam slip

2009-01-08T02:15:00.001-08:00

Attention to anyone...whoever want to take the exam slip from us,please...... **Friday,9th of jan 2009,see us at canteen 1pm-2pm**.

For others think they want to take on **Monday,12th of jan 2009,12pm-1pm,canteen 2**.

Important,late comers will not be entertain. Sry for any inconvenient because the exam slip we only will get from office on Friday,9th jan 2009. please take note.

考试到了

2009-01-05T04:41:00.001-08:00

糟糕了啦~！大考来了，我的噩梦开始了。。。

成绩向来不太好的我，对于这么大的一场仗有点害怕，或许我过不了关，也或许是我已经乏力再过了。。。最近发生很多事情，认识我的朋友都知道我的人爱讲话，不正经，搞笑派的掌门人。。哈哈。。但这几天，笑不出了~今天有点痛苦，接到了一个不是很好消息，需要忙着处理。。。又要面对课业上已经落伍的我，再来一个该死的大考，我知道崩溃正在前方等我，顶不顺了啦。。。这样一来，我想笑都不能，但在朋友面前，总不能脸臭臭吧。。所以今天所挤出来的笑容，很烂，但也是我呕心沥血，很痛苦挤出来给你们看的。。。

不想再笑了，很累了，对着你们，不知道该怎样。。。谁可以帮我走出阴霾，让我看到阳光呢？
（哈哈，不要笑，我知道这句话超烂）突然想起S.H.E 的歌。。。我的天空今天有点灰。。。我的心是个落叶的季节，我不知道如何度过今夜，所有的灯早已经全都熄灭。。。

落幕

看着镜子里的你的眼泪不断的滑落
回忆像漫长的电影狠心不断的重播
输了这一回你有多少一回眼泪换不回心碎
痛过这一回何时才学会挣脱了过去不再为他醉
落幕的故事残留的余吻留下多少断断的魂
凄美的旋律唱思念的恨手上延伸爱最深
他深情的吻你爱过的唇不论在美也已经变了

Fren Wedding

2009-01-04T07:52:00.000-08:00

==lll..... so fast~ one of my friend get married le~~ congratulations to them,im really happy.

Today i dyed my hair and attend my friend's wedding party. First i meet her,i get shock,she really change a lot~ She look mature, and even more beautiful~ When i see her with a happy face,I feel happy too~ She same class with me since we are in standard 5,she good in academic,she in the first class while in secondary school~She is a kind and nice person~

One day i was sitting in front of the computer playing my MSN,she nudge me,she asked me not to get shock cause she is going to tell me that she will get marry in january 2009... At first,i was shock,after that i feel sad to her,cause she end up her young and single life early, At last,i feel happy for her,why? Because she never feel sad or waste,she feel happy because she found a guy who love her very much,when i look at her expression,it shows me that she is in happiness~ im so glad to see her in this way~

Anyway,im really enjoy in her wedding party,i get to meet some of my secondary friends,they look a bit different,they have some changes in their apperance but it's a good changes,they become more beautiful and handsome~ Finally,Seik Ting,I wish you stay lovely and hapiness forever with your beloved one~

WILL- I -AM ALONE

2008-12-14T04:03:00.000-08:00

突然觉得很空虚哦。。。

觉得好像自己不属于任何一群朋友里，每一群都有自己的朋友，但不觉得什么，只是你们要用到我的时候才会想到我吧？上学时，总爱找很多很多的朋友，因为这样才不会显得我一个人。。。。但都知道，我不属于任何一群，都只是路过罢了~呵呵~没什么所谓，因为他们在要用到我的时候，就会想到我了，或许。。。不知道。。。

总是听到很多虚伪的话，“我们是朋友啊”，“安啦，还有我们”。。。。。。。。到最后都还是你一个笨蛋在角落不知道在干嘛。。。哈哈。。。很多事就装傻吧，习惯就好了，又不是第一次在这现实的社会打滚。。。哈哈。。。（讲得有经验的咧。。）老子，早就知道可以交的朋友，没几个，所以朋友，都只是一两个中学认识的。。。在学院的？？或许没有吧，有也是诗诗跟琳琳吧~。。。哈哈

中学老师又说过，出了这所学校，要交真的朋友的机会。。。。。不多了（还劝我要小心点）哈哈。。。老师，知错了啦。。。所以现在更珍惜以前的朋友，因为他们在需要的时候，真的会帮忙，就算是碰到金钱，我们都不会避忌，但我不会碰到金钱的啦，除非万不得已。。。哈哈。。。现在在这里要找这样的朋友？？发梦啦你！！或许他们有，但我就没有，“看破红尘了”。。。哈哈哈！！

最近都一个人吃晚餐，有很多感触。。。一个人的滋味不好受，我最怕一个人了，但习惯了，会害怕多人。。。（这句话很废，很白痴吧？哈哈）回到家，一个人，吃东西，一个人，说心事，一个人（就是这个部落格），什么都一个人。。。（当然除了冲凉跟睡觉咯，这个本来就一个人嘛）突然觉得空虚啊，老兄！！！

（这是整篇作文的最后一段咯，所以要用。。。。。最后，。。。哈哈）

最后，不知道要说什么，无聊的人就这样，呵呵。。。嗯。。。一篇歌词做总结吧。。。

你说你爱了不该爱的人
你的心中满是伤痕
你说你犯了不该犯的错
心中满是悔恨
你说你尝尽了生活的苦
找不到可以相信的人
你说你感到万分沮丧
甚至开始怀疑人生
早知道伤心总是难免的
你又何苦一往情深
因为爱情总是难舍难分
何必在意那一点点温存
要知道伤心总是难免的
在每一个梦醒时分
有些事情你现在不必问
有些人你永远不必等

完毕~

Happy Day with Seh Ling and Yee Shi

2008-12-11T06:11:00.000-08:00

Happy Day

Today after my class,i go imbi there with Seh Ling and 14~ haha!! We go there and spend a lot~~ We go there by bus today. The first thing we go there is to Eat!! After a few discussion, we decided to go the restaurant name Bar-B-Q Plaza. That is a origin Thailand shop,when u go in the shop will sounds like Gasoline,the staff will greet u loud with Sawadikap~! Then we sit down start argue-ing for the set we want~! Before that,the most important is to give the waiter my student ID,haha!! because got discount mah~! haha! Actually the main purpose we go in to this restaurant because there is the banner writing student privillege,got 20% discount~! And now we argue about what is the most DAI(worth) for our lunch,i dont eat beef so i decide to get the pork which is family set for 3-4 person,seh ling and 14 want to eat beef they want to order the Family mix set,which got beef,chicken and pork,but i dont eat,feel like wasted~~ Finally the waiter come to take order,she asked 14 wan to order what, i use my beautiful(joking la,soh la >.<),sincere and pity eyes to look at her,seems like begging her dont order the family mix set cause it is more expensive-RM41.90,havent plus tax~ She look at my eyes then straight away lk at the waiter and say: "please give me the Family mix set~.." kns~~!! haha! Didnt give me face at all and langsung din care of my feeling~~

We enjoy our lunch,we laugh more than eat,haha~! We take a lot of pics in that restaurant and that is the most busy lunch i ever have,need to grill myself~ I like the BBQ sauce that given,is nice!! While we busy eating,14 accidentally dropped her WU DONG MIAN on the table,finally the WU DONG MIAN sacrisfy~! haha! After we end our lunch,we pass by a shoe shop.then below is our conversation

S.L:William,u see,there go the slippers u want~!
W:Aiya,no size for my big foot la,my size is 13 la,dun hope la,go la!
S.L:But there is only Rm10 wor!
W:Really!!? Come, lets go!!

Haha!! From that moment,we decide to begin our "AUNTY ACTION" which we should learn from anuty-aunty sekalian,when see discount the go se,and try try try till ok then buy~! haha! Finally i bought it~! After that,we go take pic with the christmas tree at Times Square~!

Next,is our dinner time,seh ling say she have no more money,she say juz look at us enjoying our dinner lo~ Finally,me and 14 eat the dinner,we go the Taiwan Shilin restaurant~ We order the set meal which match to our theme today,haha!! Finally seh ling cannot tahan with the chicken chop,she order the same with us~After that i decide to buy my keyboard,so that we go to low yat,we walk walk and walk to find the cheapest ant the most nice de,finally,i bought it with RM26,Logitech de,haha~! Sumore is USB Head de~! Below is our conversation while deciding which is the best

sl:Hey,dun take tat one,use this,only RM23,sumore got another layer at the bottom of the keyborad,more comfortable~

W: Dun wan la,i wan this one,more YING(STYLISH),use USB de,got a bit bling bling de~

sl:But cheaper mah,hmm,wadever la,u use de~

While i walking to the cashier,sumone call me,"William,william~"

W:wassup?

sl:See,the flexible keyborad u wanna find juz now de,look like rubber de~sumore RM20 only leh~!

W:Wad!? Really wor~Yerr~i wan this one,luckily havent go pay~!

sl:But hor,this keyboard hard to press leh,sumore u want flexible for wad? u always bring out meh?

W: Aiya,more YING(STYLISH) mah,u noe wad la~!

sl:Ya meh? But the keyboard dun have the TAK TAK sound doesnt look like keyboard lo,not used to it oso~! Sumore rubber hard to press de~!

W: Yerr~~u all very shuai de,then how o?

Then i take back the keyboard and go to the cashier,but my sensitive ear heared seh ling and 14 whispering

14 and sl: Hehe,actly the keyboard not bad to press oso mah~

W: Ya lo Ya lo!! (then i walk back to them again) Not bad hor??

sl:See~~ got lubang here de,press and see see la...

Then i press the keyboard many many time then finally...

W:Ya wor~ Not nice wor,k la,buy that one back lo~

Very very very finally i bought this Logitech keyboard~! haha!

At night,we take bus go back too~ In that time,we laugh a lot~~~ It was a happy day~!

But i have to eat Maggie mee for one month because i spend a lot~!

It's a crying game

2008-12-09T07:13:00.000-08:00

明知等不到亦要等，还好有眼泪来陪衬，反正空虚没什么想发生~
难得开心过让我等，难得我越挨越振奋，可以等谁愿意问~
连眉梢都因你剧震，我勇敢，我胆怯，我不忿，回头问背后谁着了灯？（谁在接吻？）~

没有想到竟亲眼碰到，你肯当众贴向他拥抱，难道我还会有力气笑问你，相拥感觉哪位好
也许好伴侣毫无分别，大概只得比较谁轰烈，今天一见，我知我弱点

你爱我爱不起，我怪你怪不起，能重逢前度终有权妒嫉
假使他好到无人能比，不忍分离，我都忍痛原谅你（我都可以容忍你）

我怪你怪不起，无谓为他生气
仍旧想不通估不到他这种普通角色，能捕捉你
我不完美，但你未见得很爱美（我想完美，难怪被你太早放弃）

大概当天想得你太高，直到今晚我至少知道
能做你的情侣靠运数有命数，不需要资格更加好
据说你和他常常吵骂，令我忍不到我良心话
多么可怕，我不要像他

怎猜都猜不到你要与我别离,而嫌弃了我你却也并没有善待自己
早知道谁是你的新情人便懒得自卑~

Shoting with Han Xin college students

2008-11-29T07:41:00.000-08:00

Happy Memory~ DBC=Diploma in Braodcast Communication TARC=Tunku Abdul Rahman College This is what i'm studying and where i'm studying... hehe.... Braodcasting usually doing backstage stuff,maybe lightning,audio,camera man,script writer or even director... you can also be a radio Fm DJ~ Anyway, I'm more enjoying on film shoting~ haha!
One day,i get a call from my Han Xin college friend,which they need an actor act as the Taiwan Celebrity-Wu Zhun,and they ask act... hahaha.... (i know i'm not as good looking as him,just pretend la...adui) once I heard it,sure I accept,Wu Zhun wor.....wakakaka..... That day,i took the LRT from Wangsa Maju station to KL Central,and change to KTM from KL Central to Bandar Tasik Selatan. Finally I reach the destination and wait them to fetch me. Anyway,the house near by Wangsa there is which i rent to convenient me to study at TARC,my hometown near near only,at Cheras,BDR Mahkota Cheras,and this is also the place they heading there to have the shoting... It was too coincidence,so that i could go ack home after my shoting.

The shoting is just about a reporter who going to interview the celebrity which is me-Wu Zhun(wakakaka) and Ah Sa(hong kong celebrity-which is the girl with the yellow shirt). We just have to memorize all the answer which we need to pretend like we din memorize it....
Before our shoting,there is another two girls which have to act as the news reporter report about the entertainment news about the new film which is starring by WuZhun and Ah Sa. They two are funny,because they cant pronounce the words correctly,anyway,they planning to finish their news report shoting at 5pm but finally they finished at 8pm.... And still they need the backstage crew to take the paper which writing the huge word behind the camera to let them report the news,finally they finished the shoting...now,its our turn...
The reporter was more emphasis on her face... change cloth,make up and even straighten her hair by using the heaten hair clip.... she looks like the celebrity more than we do..... when we start our shoting,she just have to say :" hello everyone,i'm reporter XXX,now bring you to the scene of the film show for the first time which Ah Sa and Wu zhun are also here,hi, Wu Zhun and Ah Sa.." She cant memorize at all,although juz few sentences.... and she is not talking in english but in chinese,she suppose to memorize it easily but she need the same method we using in the news report and bring out the paper and write in the huge words! OMG.... finally after a few of funny scenes... we done our shoting,it end on 11pm something~ The whole day...i'm just geting some bread and water....

Think carefully before you get in to DBC! hehe...

Headache Assignment

2008-11-28T20:31:00.000-08:00

Pathetic Group~...

Begin the second semester, begin the new assignments. Anyway, still i find some of them who same group with me last sem, cause i think it is easier to communicate and last sem we did the assignment quite fast and well. In this sem, i think the same thing will happen to me, but actually is the opposite way....

Everytime i ask them discuss about something or idea, some of them saying, "ok, i'm ok de, i'm all with you",some saying "no idea", some chatting and some absent at all. Not only that, i just want the best in my assignment, when i think that i have to change some idea in my assignment(although all the ideas are from me), some say "dont change somemore,we dont have time anymore,dont think too much" and give me a piss off face like the ideas are from some(dun wanna mention he or her),but all from me!! why not enough time!!!??? because no one co-operate with me!!! thats why!! what the fuck,man!! really annoying me! like my fault! fuck la! chow hai!

Besides, i try to arrange all the work and everyone have their things to do,and i keep on explain and still they dont understand! Not i'm not clear enough, just they didnt pay attention at all, everyday thinking go where to eat, go back home faster, go shopping, how to choose boyfriend, go out dating....... OMG,what the fuck is this!!!? and where is my assignment???!! Although they give me the work they done,still they did wrongly..... and blame me didnt explain well to them!! Please la,first-i'm not the only one who in class,when tutor explaining,didnt you pay attention!!?? why everthing ask me!!?? Second, i had explained thousand times!!! Please..... i'm just a normal person, i'm individual, why you all treat me like this? i owe you!? after that,i ask for correction, sure they have to re-do,i said "get to measure the space accurately,it is important,and type the dialogue and the camera movement,and audio element,then stick on it,according to the measurement had made." what answer i get?? look..."ok, then u help me to do the measurement la,and the dialogue,audio element and the camera movement after u do pass to me,i type and stick." FUCK!! if i do all this, better i go and do all the thing la!! and why i ask you to do! I didn't say i want the perfect work,cause group with you all i not dare to expect but i just dont want those kindergarden cincai work,i want something.....pls.... another,i ask to do the script:"i had done the script whole day,12 pages,all had done,but tutor said the format have a little bit wrong and cut down some words, and change the title to the big alphabet" Answer i get? "I dont know anything about the format,i dont really know about microsoft word,and i absent everytime for assignment, i dont know the storyline at all,how could i do? hhuh?!! i do all the script ar?!" OMG,the whole script i did and you just correct it,isn't so difficult for you??! and the format is there,just remain it and what you need to do is adjust,man!! even a kid can do!! finally till today havent do,great! NEXT TUESDAY WE HAVE TO PASS UP!

But still luckily i have 2 of them who really helped me in my assignment,i appreciate that... ysl and yys,thanks a lot guys,but the other?? speechless...... About the assignment discussion today?? had cancelled! why?? because some say "parent not allow",some say "want to go back rawang"....... adui.... finally,still the same left ysl and yys... so we forced to cancelled our discussion. Next tuesday, we gonna present, no discussion, no preparation, no trustworthy, no team work, evrything gone..... i was so sad why they become like this, the first sem it wasn't like this, i'm enough for it,i feel want to quit,i rather just group with two of them.... i'm so tired facing all of this,anyone of you all besides the two of them,can you all help me? This is the group assignment,if you all still wanna act like this,fine! Speechless,die together! Next sem..... i'm scaring who to choose.... some say because no discussion,some did wrong in assignments,and blaming me didnt make discussion,today i ask them to come discussion,all absent.......

Choose your assignment's partner wisely...

Got THIEF!!!

2008-11-21T08:57:00.000-08:00

Tonight is my lucky night!!

tonight i was so bored,willing to find my friend to come my house and have a chat,and finally i see one of my friend got online then i ask him whether wanna come chit-chat or not?? because i was very boring at house. Finally,on 11 pm,he arrive. After that,since all the housemates in the living room,then we go chit-chat in room.

We talk a lot of things and after around half an hour,sien already,nothing to say,and he say he rushing for time too,so he say he gonna go. Since he is not really close friend to me (this is the reason why chit-chat only half an hour,or not sure more than that la~!),i checked all my important stuff like handphone,wallet and PSP.... then i go living room and take the key to open the door for him,while i come back to the room,the PSP gone!!! i was so frightening,but still i very calm,i remember very clearly the position of PSP,i wont forget the position till the day i die!! i'm very very sure that it is there,but now it was gone!! he keep on say he is in emergency,his friend at station,waiting him to fetch. Let him go first.

Impossible!!! i said,once i havent found my PSP u dont try to get away form me!! this is all because he is the one who in the room while all my housemates in living room and i going to the living room to take the key. the PSP got leg to walk itself and dissapear in few seconds!!?? stop kidding with me!!! Diu nia sing!! i'm not dumb ok??!! stop foolish me,he was trying to bullshit infront of me saying he is really urgent,but i realize few things...
1-He is the only one person in my room with the few seconds the PSP gone.
2-All my housemates are kind and helping me to search for it.
3-its around 12am that time,i dont know which station still operating!
4-he say in emergency and his phone keep on ringing every 2 minutes,i realise it,if someone who really urgent,he/she wont wait onli 2 minutes call once at least wait till 10-15 min till impatient only call him. His phone is keep on ringing,and make me felt weird!

From all of this i get to know he is the thief,he keep on rushing me to open the door,but i'm not stupid!! i said to him:"if one day i cant find my PSP,u will never get out from here,either i report to the police or i call my gang here,i'm not easily been bully,i will never let u go even someone is dying!!" finally,he come in the room and tell me:"isn't it the thing u say is gone is on the floor in front of the door??" it was really there!! and he say he want to go,i dont want to make the thing serious,i just let him go,cause at least i get back the PSP. Obviously the PSP wont have leg to walk to the door and i wont remember wrongly till in the room or placed on the floor in front of the door i also dont know...

I have to thank god and my housemates i get back the PSP...

Friendship Abuses

2008-11-18T05:20:00.001-08:00

Can anyone tell me what is friendship?

Before today, i had a friend who very close to me,i cant believe what i see today... Today first class is my Writing in Electronic Media practical class,i suppose to show my storyboad to my tutorand present my idea. Unfortunately before that,i cant find a good drawer to help me do sketching on my storyboard,but nayway i'm very thankful to my storyboard drawer who willing to help me till in the midnight~thanks! My friend that i mentioned which very dissapointed me i named her as A. A was from another group,her group get to know i cant perform well in my storyboard,and i just use comic style to present my storyboard. Strongly mentioned that every group's storyboard is confidential because avoiding from stealing idea and as a 18 year old teenager u suppose to know that u shouldn't get to know other group assignment's confidential. Today,ater i presented to the tutor,i was been tol di may be deduct marks from it,so i look very dissapointed after i presented my thing,whole class can observe that,and of course A and her group should know that.

I just cant imagine or even fream the next action she do right in front of me,i put my storyboard lean at the wall without showing my storyboard content which is confidential,however,she and her boyfriend came over and take our storyboard and just read and stared at our assignment ehich still havent submit our storyline yet,how if they steal our storyline although i know she wont do that,but can she respect the others?? Cant she think of our feeling after we failed to present our storyboard?? one of her group member came over and look at our assignment too and add another word which is "like this also can ar!?"..... i know they can find a good drawer to help them do sketching and they can perform well... but can u please dont do it so obviously?? Maybe A was not purposely to do that and I can only use this way to cheat myself she is not that kind of person... because she is very different from whati know about her... i dont wanna loss any friend anymore... She is too undue to me today,even she din speak to me today seems look down of me and it looks like she is showing her true colour of only care for herself insist of geeting good marks,other than that is not important.

p/s:to my best friend,evelyn and groups,please unite, we cant let people look down of us,i know we can do it~!

After that is our Tmadun Islam E-test, i study quite hard in order to get a better result,but A and her bf did'nt really study. still her bf get 44/50,i justget 34/50,because he is more lucky than me,he get easier questions than me,and i dont know whether he is purposely or not,say infront of me "that is useless to study,nothing related to study and test!" seems i look like a loser in front of him,and A was like agree with it,just smiling beside him.

p/s: to A,from the thing i know about u,u are not this kind of person~ i even think that u are really kind to me,but from today what i saw,it force me to say NO! u r this kind of person~ i really hope that this is a misunderstanding.... i dont want to loss any friends... i dont have any meaning to blame anyone here,justto express my feeling,so sad....

Different in noon

2008-11-15T22:41:00.000-08:00

FxxK!!!!!!!! Sucks friendster!!

OMG!! cant believe wad hapening in noon~T.T.... all my friends in friendster all gone!! stupid friendster.... MA HAI!! only left 12 friends.... DIU LEI~..... so sad.... susah susah gather all friends, friendster one word maintenance,all friends hilang,WTF!! i dont want play friendster anymore,it hurt me badly~....T.T... ANTI-FRIENDSTER!!!!!

What a gloomy and anger noon~...

Beautiful morning

2008-11-15T19:15:00.000-08:00

roll,roll,roll,roll~...... finally, i wake up~ haha!! cause yesterday night too many assignments to complete,make me felt tired~...

while i wake up,the first thing i think of it is EAT!! haha! cause i was very hungry... so that i called my friends instead of teman me eat breakfast,unfortunately we all same kaki,all still sleeping,no one willing to accompany me~ T.T... Finally, i just sit down infront of the computer and do my stupid Bahasa Melayu Lanjutan assignment,the time passed quite fast like thunder! i had finished my Pengenalan and Penghargaan~! in this moment................. i hungry like hell... >.<

while i reach the restaurant(which is everyone known as kopitiam),i saw my breakfast,try to imagine~....... fried rice with chicken chop and pour with thai sauce,fried egg,sausage and last,with some red bean~ while u imagine this,the breakfast had done.....==lll.... u know wad?? the uncle able to make my breakfast juz in FEW SECONDS!!! my first respond is.... SIAO! so fast.... finally,i was so happy to pay for my breakfast and i think i will go back to the breakfast uncle if i fell god damn hungry like just now....i swear..... haha! after that ,i went to grocery to buy my newspaper and bread for my lunch.... hehe!! and now i'm enjoying my breakfast,haha!

what a lovely and happiness morning~ haha

E5 gathering

2008-11-14T08:27:00.000-08:00

1,2,3,4,5,6,7....10~ wow!!! 10 dishes!!??

Hahaha!! yaya,tonite is our E5 gathering at wangsa maju,metroview.. at jia hao house~~ our 2 pandai classmates cooked 10 dishes,man!! haha... Err,let me see,got fried squid with chilies,fried chicken with ginger,fish fillet with lemon sauce,pork meat with tomato sauce,fried vegetable........ wow!! i was so full~~! haha~! somore we got salad and ABC soup~!! my favourite~ finally we have beer with longan,feel nice... haha... but at last... we have to pay for the foods too,haiz... worrying how much would it be ler~ sure very kao la,got sotong,fish,chicken and sumore beer~~ diu lo~~ haha...

Love

2008-11-13T03:39:00.000-08:00

Izzit i should feel happiness in me when someone really loves me very much~?

Hey there,if u can hear me,i wish to tell u please dun love me that much... No reason,honestly, maybe i did not love u as much as u can. u are too much sacrisfy,sometimes i feel guilty too~ Today,i asked u a question,if i dissapear from u for a period of time,u will still love me just like now? I confuse whether i should happy or stress when i heard the answer yes! Let me tell u,u really frightening me,i worrying if i tell u now that i have no more feeling in you,what is ur respond will be? Or izzit i should tell u this? i really hope u are viewing my blog so that i wont have to force myself to say this...

hope this will over soon...